Time and Space

There has been much time
Placed between then and now
And in this space
Flowers have grown
A path has been built
It encourages me to travel
As the flowers whisper,
"Your travels are beautiful
Your journey true
For you've finally become
The truest sense of you"

I travel freely
With no pain to bind
Because I finally have found
Some peace of mind

And all of the sorrow
That came from this time
Was not my reality
It was built by a mind

A mind I had built
with someone else's hands
A reality dreamt
From someone else's plans

I know have my own
Built on yellow and blue
And all the new things
In various hues

I'm spun around
Can't seem to hold
   on to you
You fall to the side

This romance I have with life
Is breaking me

I hold out my heart
Something for you
   to grab hold of
But you never open up
   to this chase

And I am left alone
   in this romance
I have with life
          
 Broken

Pain is not permanent!

FInding Me

I am
Everything the filter lets pass
Mama made it stronger
Father made it fast
No one taught me not
To listen
Only said I 'ought to
Now my mind is piled up
High
I can't sift through to who
I am
The person I would be
Before I was taught to see
Today
I'm clearing out the skies
Till there is nothing
Of what some human left
Just me sitting
And being the way I ought to be
Not the way I was taught to be
Seeing the world
With no filter
Finding a way back to me

Can't let Go

I can't let go,
To this place,
That's as close as home,

I can't let go,
Of the love I've made,
To the strange emptiness,

I can't let go,
Of lessons learned,
To a seemingly clean slate,

I can't let go,
Of laughter held in every spot,
To a closed stern line,

I let go,
To be swept into the unknown,
But my heart,
Is still firmly held,
Onto the memories....